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I feel nothing.The numbness is almost comforting
The feeling of absolutely nothing
No sadness, no anger
Just dead silence
I couldn't care less for his reply
I couldn't care less if he's gone for good
No nervousness, no fear
Just emptiness
My life just goes on, the days drag by
My cuts don't get worse, nor do they improve
No worries, not anxious
I feel nothing.

CharcoalI light up all the words you say.
I turn them into birds of prey.
No backing down.
It's the judgement day.
Happy birthday! Aren't we a fact!?

The silence is now louder,
And we are samer than the others.
Though the fire now burns quieter,
We're nothing but fighting brothers.

So I light up all the words you say.
I turn them into birds of prey.
No backing down.
It's the judgement day.
Happy birthday! Aren't we a fact!?

Aren't we lovers? Aren't we a fact?
Let's find a new fate.

Somewhere

people

don't

know

our

ComplicationsI am a constand disappointment

In the life of those I care about

And no matter how much I try

To pull away and shout I wanna break out

I wanna break the silence of my mind

Throw hate at you like acid

Make you believe I’m one of their kind

I want to burn your skin and make you suffer

Just so my words can’t reach you anymore

It’s my final wish, my last deadly offer

Let me go before I break you, dear

You’re too close, you came too near

I don’t know how to handle life

I don’t how to deal with my fear

My nervous complications

Follow no rule and no logic system

I am caught in lunacy and not in con

Don't.Put down the meds,
Pick up a book.
Stop cutting the wrist,
and take a second look.
The world may seem dark,
but it's so full of life!
So don't quit now,
the time isn't right.
Don't tie the noose.
Put the knife away.
It's not the time.
It's not the right day.
There's many things in this world,
both wrong and right.
But don't let the pain
blind your sight.
Many people love you
and can't wait for your smile.
So don't go, don't leave.
Please, stay a while.
Don't let the world try to hurt you.
Many people want to help
and help you get will soon.
Because if you go,
life wouldn't be the same.
So don't pick up the gun.
Live to see another day.

Dear momThirteen years are far too long.
I think of your favorite song
and I sit here this day,
thinking what would be the best to say.

I miss you, more then most know.
I remember the way your eyes used to glow.
Waking up each morning, to the smell of coffee and smoke,
there you sat, in your morning cloak.

One day I will paint, I'll paint you in blue.
For you are my sky, that will always be true.
I think of the days filled with happiness and smiles,
the way you made us feel, could be seen for miles.

The little things I wish I remembered,
the way you laughed, what you would have worn in December.
How it felt to fall a sleep next to you,
but one day

wading in deeperI've never told you
about this fear
and it is proof of cowardice
how I dare speak of it
when you're not here
I've never put it into words
before, but maybe you've seen it
in the way I look at you
or silently plead for your hand
to hold
it says
please
don't leave me
alone
because you are
the most precious soul
and without you here
I forget how to breathe
and drown

Consider It a DiseaseIs like a bomb that's about to hit
A errie thought that takes over
When life get hard
We give up
Therefore it seems like death is the only answer
You wish your friends and family can stop you
But only you can stop yourself
Don't let negatively become a disease
You're stronger then that
Life will get better down the road
Is the truth but only so few can believe in so

The Battle for SanityI’m struggling to keep sanity

Thanks to humanity

Every day is a battle

My head shakes like a rattle

Broken from the scars of this war that I see

I can barely make out who I used to be

As the days grow hotter

I melt to water
<

Have you seen that girlHave you seen that girl
With the yellow clothing
Running around, making too much noise?

I’m afraid I haven’t
I’ve seen the girl in blue though
She was calm, yet seemed troubled

What’re you talking about
I’ve only seen the girl in black
Packed with danger, yet kept to herself

Ah, were you guys just talking about me?

They all turned
To find the girl
The color they each want to see
For she is nothing
But
A mirror
That shows what you want to see
But never
Revealing the hidden part inside

Stone Heartkneeling on rough ground,
the tears fall from my face,
collecting in a chalice beneath your feet,
feel the melodic rhythm of my heart in every drop,
and sate your thirsty lips upon the cool water,
drink your fill from the wellspring of my love,
but do not be surprised once the well runs dry,
and my heart becomes like stone,
and beats no more

Be happy, my baby girl.I don’t know when you’ll be reading this, my sweetheart
But what daddy is about to tell you will help you understand him a little

Your father is a complex, but loving and caring man
He always tried to help his friends and loved ones whenever he could, even if it was at the cost of himself
But that isn’t the best thing one can do
It got him hurt a lot by people he would have never thought to be hurt by
Luckily daddy has gone through it all, just so he could teach you to be different
Listen to me baby girl, it took daddy not long to figure out what life is
What life is ment to be, and what its true purpose is

He was depresse

LiveI'm Rio that needs a hero.

Take this knife out of my chest or leave me bleeding with out a bulletproof vest.

Am I a angel or a demon? something in me is emotional and hidden.

Somethings are unwritten and out spoken. A fire is in me.

Water calms the flames of rage. To much water kills the flame that is in a cage.

The bird still sings in it's tortured state of mind. Trying to find peace inside.

Peace is is wish for being so blind. Because peace is at his bedside.

Between the darkened heart and pent up rage. The sun is rising off the waves.

A new day rises another one sets. I'm letting go of this soulless regret.

This is for my own good

Love and trust are brokenLove and trust are broken
More times than restored
And leaves a person dead
But not blind
When you still fall in love and trust
Even though you’re broken
It’s probably just desperation
To keep away the bitter truth
The truth that says
Mutual love rarely does exist
When they do, it needs to come with trust
And the truth with trust is that
You can’t trust anybody
Without getting broken
Not even yourself

Disposablei am a piece of paper,
scribbled and full of holes,
crumpled and torn,
i have been used and tossed aside,
now i am little more then garbage,
an error and a mistake,
why am i so disposable?

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Complicated LoveToday i need you,
today i will love you

Tomorrow I am fine
tomorrow I wont need to love you

Today I feel like talking
today I will talk

Tomorrow I don't feel like talk
Tomorrow I wont talk

Is that how love is ment to be?
is this how days should be?

I ask you, to speak.. yell.. anything and no word comes out
yet you expect me to keep smiling and accept everything as if it was nothing

I should think less… care less and love less
because, in other words, that is what you want

I don't know anymore, what you want me to do
all I know I will have to change, for you… and I wont even regret it.

When your heart is fighting...The love that one feels can be beyond imagination,
But when it's not recognized, it has no point

When fire is so easy to die out,
Should there be hope for it to come back?

When a flower starts to die,
Can you give it back the colour it had?

Can you build on a platform with one pillar,
When it needs two to stand?

Can a heart keep beating,
When it has lost the other part?

How should I keep on going,
When there isn't given any hope,

The sun is shining,
Yet I feel cold

A part of me just died,
But my heart… keeps fighting.

True Lovewhat is happyness..?

people search for it all over the world,
to find true.. happyness,

but what is it..?
what are people looking for?

I now have found true happyness,
I know what it is,

happyness is loving,
loving and making one smile,

I'm sitting in the buss,
and looking through the window

I see a lot of things,
buildings, trees, people, cars..

all I can think is one thing tho,
and that's my one and only love,

the one who makes me smile each and every day,
the one who wipes my tears when I cry,

the one who makes me laugh,
the one who gives me a safe and warm feeling,

the one I can tell everything to, without having to fea

Fair..? -- 9-11 --fair.. what is fair,
the question Why bothers my mind every day,

why is the world so unfair,
why is life.. so unfair,

two cars crash into eachother and cause an accident,
one was the causer of the accident while the other car was at a wrong place at the wrong time,

the man who caused the accident was drunk.. high on drugs, just an idiot on four wheels,
in the other car.. a happy family, wife and husband with 2 sweet little angel of children, coming back from a fun day in a amusement park

the crash was severe,
only one survived,

the only one who survived.. was.. the drunk man..
the family, didn't survive,

this happens... every sing

A Lonely HeartEver had the feeling that your words mean nothing?
the feeling that your opening your heart to someone,
telling everything that is on your mind, that bothers you,
and the person just ignores what you say

i dont know but this is the way it feels to me..

but when i say i love you,
i want to hear i love you too,

when i say i need you,
i want to hear i need you too,

when i say you are everything to me,
i want to hear the same from you.

when one doesnt want to put the energy to tell you how much you are needed,
are you a bother or doesnt that person care..?

you can break the walls of a house,
but you cant break the walls of a heart

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I just want this to end

by ~ChainedTrust, Mar 21, 2013, 9:42:30 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

I just want to forget
From the moment i wake up,
I see flashes of you
Whenever I hear your name,
My mind starts wandering
I don’t know why you could forget
I don’t know why I cant
I see my heart, carrying your name
The pain is overwhelming
I cant bare the pain any longer
I just want to forget
Forget what I had
Forget what I have
There is no future left for me
Everything I had is gone
Blood is leaving my veins, my body
It hurts, but still not painful enough
I just want to forget
My heart is crying
But my eyes are dry
I don’t want to feel the pain anymore
I just… want this to end…

I just want this to endby ~ChainedTrust

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~chewyraezen Apr 14, 2013

my heart is crying. so poignant. filled with emotion. i know this feeling well.

~ChainedTrust Apr 14, 2013 Student Writer

Thank you. I am happy, truly happy, that my words can touch people in some way.
Again, thank you, for your support and appreciation

~chewyraezen Apr 14, 2013

It did touch me and I can relate. you are most welcome!

~DeantheFoul Mar 22, 2013 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Crying on the inside. Its painful.

~ChainedTrust Mar 22, 2013 Student Writer

It is my friend, it is.

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